Today, December 28th, I officially turn 46 years old.
That’s what the calendar says.
That’s what the candles would say—if I could still fit them all on one cake.

But………I decided to do a little magic.

4 + 6 = 10.

So… I’m 10.
And honestly? That feels about right.

Because somewhere between responsibilities, routines, and “adult conversations,” we forget something important: age is a number, but feeling is a choice.

At 10, life was simple in the best way.
Joy came easily.
Laughter was loud.
Time felt slow.
And wonder didn’t need permission.

At 46, life is fuller, deeper, sometimes heavier—but it doesn’t mean we have to leave the child behind. We just hide him better. We call him “immature” when he laughs too hard. We call him “unrealistic” when he dreams too freely. We tell him to be quiet when he asks curious questions.

But what if we didn’t?

What if feeling younger isn’t about denying age—but about choosing how we show up inside it?

Being 10 again doesn’t mean avoiding responsibility.
It means still being curious.
It means finding joy in small things.
It means laughing before explaining.
It means believing that a good day can still surprise you.

It’s not hard to feel like a child again.
We just have to want it.

We have to allow ourselves to play without apologizing.
To be excited without justification.
To smile without a reason ready in advance.

Growing older is inevitable.
Growing old inside is optional.

So today, I’m celebrating my birthday with a little rebellion.
Not against time—but against the idea that wisdom must be serious and adulthood must be heavy.

I’ll take the years.
I’ll keep the lessons.
But I’ll also keep the lightness.

Because if I’m honest, the best version of me is probably a mix of both:
46 years of experience…
and a 10-year-old’s way of seeing the world.

And that feels like a very good age to be. 🎂✨

GK

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  23. I’m a day late, but right on time for this.
    Happy Birthday—10 looks good on you.

    This piece made me smile in that quiet, reflective way—the kind that lingers. You captured something true here: that growing older doesn’t require growing heavier. The math may be playful, but the insight is solid. Curiosity, wonder, and joy don’t belong to childhood alone—they belong to anyone brave enough to keep them.

    Here’s to the years you’ve earned, the lightness you’ve protected, and the rebellion of staying open in a world that tries to close us down.

    A very good age, indeed.

    — Marin

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    1. Thank you, Marin 🤍
      This arrived exactly when it needed to—timing measured in presence, not days.
      Your words feel deeply seen and thoughtfully offered. “The rebellion of staying open”—that will stay with me. You’re right: lightness isn’t naïveté, it’s courage. And protecting it takes intention.
      I’m grateful for this reflection, for the smile that lingered, and for the way you honored both the years earned and the wonder kept.
      A very good age indeed—made even better by words like yours.
      GK

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    1. Thank you so much. You’re right on time for the spirit of it—and that’s what matters most. I truly appreciate your warm wishes and the reminder to keep that youthful spark alive. 🎈
      GK

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  26. Happy Belated Birthday, Georgi! It seems I’m a little late to the party, but your ’46 years of experience with a 10-year-old’s eyes’ is such a beautiful way to live. I am sure you had a wonderful day, especially with these beautiful ponderings. You said it so well. 🏖🤗🎂

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    1. Thank you so much 🤍
      Not late at all—your words arrived with perfect timing. I love how you phrased it, “46 years of experience with a 10-year-old’s eyes.” That’s exactly the balance I hope to keep. Your kindness means a lot. 🎂🤗
      GK

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    1. Thank you 🤍🙂
      I love that meaning—completion and a new beginning feel like the perfect way to frame this moment. I’m grateful for the wish and for welcoming this new cycle with such beautiful symbolism. 🎈
      GK

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